leaving tumblr until further notice…

I just can’t deal with most of you anymore.

There’s still a handful of you on here that I love with all my heart and would hate to lose by leaving here, so if you don’t already have ways of contacting me outside of tumblr (twitter, facebook, texting, IM) please message me and I’ll hook you up because although I’m throwing away the blogging and the drama, I would hate to throw you away with it.

Most of you, however, I can’t stand to be around anymore. It’s not that I can’t stand you yourselves, but I can’t stand being around you when I know that your feelings towards me aren’t true or just that you’ve stopped caring. It’s not just about me either; there are a lot of other people that I care deeply about who have been pushed just as far out as I have. I just can’t handle how much this thing has separated anymore and I just need to remove myself from it completely, for my own sanity.

I’ve lost a few really close friends through this drama and this divide and it sucks because you were people that I really held close to my heart, and still do, but you seemed to have stopped caring. I can’t keep bringing myself to a place that keeps conjuring up so much negativity like this.

Everything’s a contest on here and although for a while my competitive/insecure self couldn’t handle being pushed out of the race, now as an observer, I still can’t stand to see the fact that it’s still a fucking contest to see who can be on top, which is complete bullshit. I’m so over this.

I tried to make amends. I tried to be the bigger person and just push all of this negativity out of my subconscious but I just can’t anymore. You guys have turned this into a place that I hate. Those of you that are still willing to keep up a relationship with me, please please please don’t hesitate to do so. I’m still here in spirit and I would love to keep up these amazing friendships I’ve made off of tumblr, but I just have to part ways with this for now.

keep on rockin’ in the free world,
Danielle