an open letter to my tumblr friends
If you don’t understand any of what this letter is talking about, then chances are it’s probably not aimed at you.
With that being said, let me try to figure out how to put this in the most vague way possible as not to offend any one person in particular…
I love you all.
But you’ve changed.
Some have come and some have gone and I’ve been grateful for every single one of you that has come into my life since I started my blog in 2009.
I just don’t like what we’ve become. We used to all be so close. What happened? There are some people who a few years ago I would have considered among my best friends on here that I don’t even follow anymore because of how much they’ve changed. I still follow mostly everybody but that doesn’t mean that I’m still under the illusion that things are still honky dory with all of us.
Some point over the past year, we all divided. In part I blame the book (which I have been informed has been lost in transit, btw), in part I blame the end of the SNL season, in part I blame some of the newer members of the group(s) although it wasn’t their intention, they just happened to only get to know a select few of us and those select few started to gravitate towards them and away from each other. I guess I also blame myself for not trying harder.
What I’m trying to get at here though isn’t a letter to call anybody out. What I’m trying to get at here is how I wish we could all get along like we used to. I wish we could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat it and be happy. I actually wish that. We have had so many good times over the years, from SNL liveblogging (back when it was only a few of us) to movie-themed weeks where we would all get together and watch a movie over AIM, to Nutsybolts, to Drawmything, late night Tok Box sessions, endless gif dance parties, and everything in between. Now we have the occasional reply button or ask box and that’s really it.
I miss us. Remember when we were all going to rent a beach house and watch SNL together in the same room? I know some of us still make plans to get together, but in much smaller groups now. We’re not a collective anymore. We’ve been divided by too many followers, too many deleted and recreated accounts, too much drama. Despite who your core group of tumblr friends is now, if I was ever considered your friend at some point, I still consider myself your friend now. There are some of you that might not have even realized that I wanted to be a friend because you were too swept up in the frenzy of your own new group of friends, but I’m still there for you. Chances are if I still follow you, then I still care. Either that or I’m too afraid to show you that I’ve given up caring, but in almost all cases, it’s the former.
I know I’m not the only one who’s noticed this, as I’ve talked to a few of you about it over the year and you’ve all basically expressed the same thing. I don’t expect any of this to change, I just wanted to get my feelings out there and let you know that even though I hate what’s happened to our group and subsequently to some of us individually, I still love you all and want to be your friend.
love always,
Danielleto anyone that missed my post this morning… <3
just thought I’d put this out there again.
